The Corona crisis affects everyone, but us creative people in a special way. This Still life series and diary was created during my 4 weeks of self-isolation. With items of everyday life from my own home I transformed metaphorically or symbolically my thoughts about the profession of the photographer and its relevance but also about topics like solidarity, social inequality, isolation and self-optimization. In doing so, I have appreciated the opportunity to implement image ideas in an informal and experimental way with few resources. This is something that seemed to have got lost in the hustle and bustle of everyday life.
A selection of the series is also part of the project stayathome.photography , where I started a photographical conversation with the photographer Stephanie Bonn from Berlin.
20/03/2020 Since my return from India, I have often been confronted myself with the question in which direction I want to move photographically. Among other things, this has resulted in a new concept for a project and I have gone through an application procedure for a scholarship. From tomorrow on there will be curfews in Bavaria and again I will have a lot of time to do some reflection. However, I'm already tired of talking about existential fears, loss of fees and impossible financial help. I'd rather spend my time and energy to think about how the photographer's profession will change due to the corona crisis, in the best case in a positive way. ⠀
21/03/2020 Isn't it a privilege to live in quarantine? To stay in your own home, where you have made yourself comfortable for a long time? Rooms where you protect yourself and don't infect others? The longer I think about it, the worse I imagine what it must be like to live as a refugee in a crowded camp. Sleeping on the street as a homeless person or not having enough money for food for your family. We shouldn't forget them besides all our own worries we are facing right now.⠀
22/03/2020 As quiet as today and this in the middle of the city is absolutely unique for me. When there is less traffic, you really notice how fresh city air can smell, how much bluer the sky looks. That is something you could get used to, couldn't you?
23/03/202 A thousand ways to be distracted. To do concentrated home office must also be trained. Anyway, I'm just now learning to appreciate my studio even more. So much is buzzing around in my head, but I just can't get it sorted at home quite yet. Does anyone have any tips for me?
24/03/2020 Social distancing feels for me like getting closer to one another at the moment. Physically distanced, right, but I feel solidarity, a sense of community and that the world, despite its borders, is getting closer and everyone is going through the same thing. I see friends, we exchange ideas and are emotionally closer than ever. Projects are emerging in which people who are complete strangers work together on solutions, are creative together. ⠀
25/03/2020 Every walk, every trip to get groceries, every visit to the doctor is a risk of contracting the virus and getting into a life-threatening situation. I don't need to worry much about myself, but when I think of the old or the pre-ill persons I just get dizzy. ⠀
26/03/2020 Not knowing if you already got infected and not feeling any clear symptoms is very annoying for me. Just talking about the possibilities makes us feel sick. Many people become hypochondriacs instantly.
27/03/2020 Do you also have mood swings? Sometimes it helps me to take deep breaths and hold my breath for a few seconds in the stomach. But sometimes it also helps me to simply express what I feel.
28/03/2020 Where does all this obligation for self-optimization come from? Or should I jump on the train and really make the most of my free time? Try me out? Change myself? Train myself? Or maybe I should simply discard any agenda and really try to experience being!
20/03/2020 Being lonely together is what we are experiencing right now. It's nice that we can see our friends and family regularly through video chats, that this possibility exists. However, I imagine it really difficult for the single persons who will have to endure a time without touch and affection.
30/03/2020 In German there is this saying "waiting and drinking tea". Today, an extension of the initial restriction was announced, which means that from now on you will have to be patient for at least another three weeks and keep yourself busy at home - so wait and see.
31/03/2020 The first quarter of this year is over. I can't wait to see what the next one will be. As a self-employed person, most people often have to deal with fear of the future anyway, but this time it's going to be really exciting. I always try to stay optimistic, but let's be honest? This will be a real challenge for some of us.
01/04/2020 Today I sensed the fire again after a long time! The reason why I do what I do. Why I am a photographer. Why I want to use my art to fight for social injustice, minorities, problems. To do something meaningful and to give a voice is the biggest motivation for me.
02/04/2020 One of my biggest weaknesses is that I worry too much. I wish I was more relaxed, calmer - or simply more badass in some ways.
04/04/2020 At times like these, we should keep a special eye on each other. You don't know what someone is going through, how someone is coping with isolation, whether everyone is doing well in their environment. Better accept people and situations as they are.
07/04/2020 There is help, but somehow it's complicated. There is solidarity, but only within our own national borders. There are benefits, but unfortunately they are not enough. This could be a time to change things fundamentally, to open our eyes and reach out to the most unprivileged.
09/04/2020 I keep catching myself thinking one step too far. Maybe because I'm too impatient, maybe because I'm annoyed that the future is so unpredictable, especially in these times. In any case, I need to repeat telling myself: „Don't cross the bridge until you come to it“.
11/04/2020 If you look into the past, you sometimes notice how you have grown, how everyday life has changed, how you have developed. I find that beautiful. If you look into the future you can imagine how you will have grown, what you will have learned. In a way a reverse prognosis.
20/04/2020 I broke my self-isolation at home. I feel shame but also the urge for self-determination. I can't stand it at home anymore, I'm not productive enough, so I spend a lot of time in my studio now still trying to avoid contacts as good as possible. This is therefore my last contribution from my sweet quarantine in the hope that we all don't have to wait too long and can soon meet our friends and family again. It is a time when you can learn a lot about yourself, appreciate the important things and take the positive aspects with you for your future.